I know it's not your fault and you may be feeling frustrated that you don't seem to be getting anywhere. What can I tell you? Pick yourself up and forge ahead. I know, easy for me to say. I run the joint. I understand, believe me. Failure is always an option, setbacks will occur. It's all built into the system. I've got my issues, too. My characters complain all the time. Why should you be any different?